Wednesday, August 5, 2015

HOME

"Hold on to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road
And although this wave is stringing us along
Just know you're not alone
'Cause I'm gonna make this place your home"

I've been on a Phillip Phillips kick lately and I'm in love with his song "Home." 

I grew up in Dunnellon and when I think of home, I immediately think of the big brick and wood house my dad built for us in the woods. I think of the yard we turned into a small baseball diamond and the cat we named Frisky that once fought a fox that lived under our front deck- AND WON. I think of my dad's cheesy magic tricks at my birthday parties and my mom's homemade birthday cakes that she now makes for each of my brother's six kids every year. I think about tree climbing and swimming in the pond. I think about my childhood best friend, Sydney and all the hours spent marrying off Barbie and memorizing the final dance scene from Dirty Dancing. I think about how safe and happy I always felt. How I always had so much space to dream.




Now, home means something different. Now I have security on a new level. The security of a good, Godly man. The security of a marriage built on faith and shared dreams for the future. Home for me now is one word: Jeremy. 

From the moment I met Jeremy I day dreamed about what our kids would look like. Would they have his gorgeous blue eyes? Would they get his beautiful skin and adorable dimples? The other day this memory came flooding back to my mind and I had a really big "aha!" moment. Those things are fun to day dream about, yes, BUT what I am now hoping against hope is that our children get his heart. I pray they get his kindness and his sense of adventure. I really pray they get his BIG LOVE for our God. In that moment I cried thinking oh my goodness my husband is going to give me the most beautiful human beings. 



I asked my FaceBook friends yesterday what they considered home to be. Here are some of their answers:

Jennifer Miles Security. Comfort. Love. Consistency.

Sherri Donaldson Peters Unconditional love

Jennifer Speck Safe. Sanctuary. Love. Blessing.

Breanne Claus Wood My first thought is heaven! That is the home I am longing for. As for my earthly home... It's all those small tastes of heaven such as family, love, safety, and comfort.

Linda Rhea Moore Love, peace, warmth, rest, happiness!

Mary Kathy Rhea Douglas peace, love, empathy, caring, safety

We cannot wait to give you a home, Baby Q. We cannot wait for you to feel safe, comfortable, warm, secure, and LOVED. I know there will be days where you have hard questions. I know there will come a time where you feel abandoned in a way I will never really understand. I know there will come a time when you look at me and wonder what your birth mother looks like. I know. I'm ready.

 "Hold on to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road
And although this wave is stringing us along
Just know you're not alone
'Cause I'm gonna make this place your home"


Proverbs 24: 3-4

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