I was sitting at the drive through window at Dunkin' Donuts chatting with the sweet and funny girl who was ringing me up. We were discussing how just the right amount of afternoon coffee can make you super productive while too much afternoon coffee can make your husband think your super crazy and I saw her glance quickly in my backseat.
Now, I don't even know if she knew she did it, but she did- she looked for my kids. She was probably about to make a "mom needs her coffee joke," or maybe it's just a habit, either way, she looked and when she walked away to get my coffee- I LOOKED.
Then it happened. I saw this scene like it was really there. I saw the carseat and the smiling baby. I saw the sippy cup and the cheerios spilled all over the floor. I saw these eyes that knew me like no other and understood our bond like no one else could.
Then like a flash, all was gone.
I drove away from Dunkin' Donuts with the biggest smile I've had in days.
So...OK- I assure you I completely understand that babies aren't always smiling and that sometimes as a mother you wonder why you ever decided to give up your precious freedom. I get that, I really do. But here's the thing- I also know the day is going to come where I'm at that same drive through chatting up the girl helping me, and we are going to talk just a little bit longer. We are going to talk about my precious, smiling baby. We are going to talk about how old she, is or what his name is, or how cute she is, or about his adorable outfit his daddy picked out for him and I will smile big and say to her YES, AND I PRAISE GOD EVERYDAY FOR MY LITTLE MIRACLE.
And I will drive away with the biggest smile I've had in years.
What am I looking forward to today? The little things. I cannot wait.