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Friday, July 24, 2015
Hope Does Not Disappoint
Swept, vacuumed, dust-busted, Clorox wiped everything, organized, folded laundry, scooped liter, took out trash, scrubbed tubs and sinks, dusted and swept some more...
Started to realize why Cinderella just wanted a night out in a fancy dress and new shoes.
Went through paperwork one more time to make sure everything was in oder.
Helped Jeremy baby-proof every cabinet, outlet and drawer...
Gave up around 10:30 and went to bed. Cannot sleep. What if I forgot something? What then? Will her repot be bad? Will that in turn make us wait even longer? We've waited so long as it is. That doesn't seem fair. I'm so overwhelmed.
Then I opened my Bible and prayed. I asked God to show himself to me. I asked for guidance.
Now, I'm not pretending this always works. As a Christian, I know I can't just expect to ask God for help and have it magically appear as soon as I flip open my Bible. I know I have to really dig deep into his word to find the really good stuff. But last night, God knew how tired I was, He knew I needed Him loud and clear and soon.
I flip open to these five verses:
Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know hat suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Peace with God.
We rejoice in the hope of the
Glory of God.
And then my favorite three little words in this
verse: "Not only so" because in my head it
sounds more like "But wait, there's more!"
We also rejoice in our
sufferings, because we know that suffering producesperseverance;perseverance, character; and character, hope.
And just like magic, there it
is, the "good stuff:"
And hope does not disappoint us
God cannot disappoint us. He
is incapable of it. God is love He is all that is good and if His
plan is for us to become parents through adoption, this home study
will pass with flying colors.
And then I slept like a baby (no pun intended).
Our social worker came this morning at 8:00am and
left around 10:30. Before she left she smiled at me and said, "Don't
worry. It went well."